all this pain is an illusion 

reason above emotion

If we are true to our hearts and minds, ignoring harmful emotion and jealousy, the things we anticipate to be so hard become perhaps the exact contrary, amazingly simple. Pure love withstands all emotion. Knowing ones heart is how you get there. When we kind of "lose control" of our thoughts are we really not just simply losing control, but relinquishing thought power to someone. Whether it be another being specifically, is to be determined(I don't know). But the control goes somewhere else. I believe we are constantly surrounded by other beings, even in seperate dimensions not visible to us. They're energy exists and we are affected by it.
The initial thought of ourselves (intuition) or other human beings are just simply cognitions. Yet when those pure thoughts, once exposed, no longer within our being; they can become subject not only to influences of other humans but that of these energies as well. Sometimes to lessen cognitive purity, to darken it, turn it to fear. Other times luck comes into play and the influences can be perceived as good.
It is our internal good and reason to be able to step back and review what occurrance has ensued and how the pure thought or pure mind may have been affected by these extra dimensional beings. Being aware of their existence and energy makes me able to place myself above the influence. Giving more personal POWER!! and maintaining internal rationale and reason. "Over thinking, over analyzing seperate the body from the mind!"-MJK, TOOL (Lateralis)

i just think this is beautiful Absence of Vision by:alexiuss


This is ME

Time

a product of man's world. to God time does not exist. and in certain moments, it is absent on this earth. especially when i am with you.
it is strange how in a few seconds life can change. yet in hours, months and years people are static, unchanging. does it all rely on our Choices, our Free will? or does God sometimes reach his finger down to Touch the Hearts of men. guide us with His eye. Blink, and it could be gone. now one of those stagnant blanks whose has not a clue where to go in this entropic world.
We are all Beings, Human beings for that matter. and nevertheless we are subject to the laws and rules of this World in which we reside. one of which is Time. our puny lives revolve around it. everyone in a rush. i think of the novel Farenheit 451 and all the people who move so unimaginably quick. Literature, Art and all the Finer things no longer have a Presence. is that where we are headed?
Not I! because i have found my place, where time perishes. i put my Mind there when this world is no longer bearable.
now I have found where it is, and. . . we are One, we are Art in its purest existence, the rarest of beauty. priceless.
the Freedom to Create is bestowed upon us, never to be abused. Powerful, only to go beyond the highest place. ride the wind. . . live the dreams we've always had. it is there we meet and bathe in the glow of Eternal Summer.

ART

Today was excellent, to say the least.
It was interesting to note in my horoscope it said that the problems I have been having with making long term goals will clear up today. And as usual it was right. I am in a drawing class at my college and I have really been stressing about not really knowing which major fits me best. This morning I received some great encouragement from my professor Marcus. He had inquired if I was an art major and guided me to give it some thought. I think before, last spring when I was still trying to decide, I was afraid I wasn't a good enough artist to be an art major. I also thought I wouldn't want the limitations that come with all the degree requirements and putting together a portfolio. Now I have a bit more experience in other areas around campus. Marcus was emphasizing that artist must be well versed in other realms of thought and literature because an artist must have something to portray in a piece. Without other knowledge our art would be without meaning and basically worthless. I am excited to study new things and I will continue to practice. I have knowledge of what lies for me in the future and am now embracing it. Applying it to my everyday life.

Petite Epiphany

Where there is goodness there is always adversity!
It is best to know what your heart and mind (spirit) tell you.
Doubt is a product of the devil.

Wrapped up in Mind's games
I began to Fear that most true to me.
Our physical proximity had suddenly disappeared,
I thought it stolen;
A piece so fragile taken and irretrievable

Life once filled with motivation and resiliance,
Now replaced with desperation and personal torment.
Curious to know what had made my true self go.
Search was frantic, and fearful
To no avail
My grip had loosened, and tarrying I let go completely.

Struggle to regain has been a slow process.
Only now do I see God and eternal love.
Truth, has never left my side.
I had only been blinded, put away.
Neglecting the deep, I floated to the surface,
Retracting all spirituality.

Still cautious and aware,
Slowly the light seeps in.
Moments it pours with power,
I must train my spirit again
To perceive love without condition.

Feeling that I had lost the one
Who instills and influences my being
To become that which I truly am.
So I must find it within
Because it was never missing.

The time is now to crawl up,
And reach out.
I must shake away the mud and ugliness.
Polish that which lies within.
He brings my passion for life and learning

I will help myself now because I know how.
We will move to a higher summit
Revel at the top.
Success is my true destiny
Without jeopardy.

Wow, thanks to my loving friend hellfinkio (check out his blog too) i have found a way for me to express my many ideas. Only good things can come from this, how exciting!

Well this is my first. Unfortunately, i am at a loss for words. Too much studying, my thoughts are needed elsewhere but this fucking blog needs some validation. I will give it my best and all that has been running through my mind are the words of the beloved MJK (maynard james keenan lead singer of TOOL).

He says: "With my feet upon the ground I lose myself between the sound. And open wide to suck it in, i feel it move across my skin! I'm reachin up and reaching out. I'm reaching for the random or whatever will bewilder me. . . and following my will and whim we may just go where no one's been. We ride the spiral to the end. And may just go where no one's been."

So profound, prophetic, beautiful. There are almost no words to describe the feelings I get EveryTime i hear this song. It instantly gives me chills and inspiration. If you love it too, tell me i would love to hear your ideas.
Thats all for now,
ttyl
LINZ